Tonight

Ok, after having a bar-b-que sandwich and a chocolate turtle fudge cookie with ice-cream and hot fudge, (Remember how I said that Bruce was a horrible accountability partner), I was tempted to beat myself up...WHY didn't I stop at 5...I wasn't at a 0 when I started...uhhh, why am I aware of everything AFTER THE FACT...Why can't I be more AWARE all of the time...what happened to the 8 Keys...in the words of Charlie Brown "AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!!".

And, when I look back at each one of those statements they all have something in common....I, I, I, I...the focus of ME!!! So, by God's grace, even with food up to my epiglottis, I am trying the whole Grace thing...to observe and correct. So, I screwed up tonight...God is bigger than that...He still loves me...it's not about how well I did or if I failed miserably...He can use it all to the good for me, whether it is an opportunity to experience His Grace...or to entertain you with my rantings...or to keep me from EVER EATING CHOCOLATE AGAIN BECAUSE I AM SO SICK RIGHT NOW THAT I COULD...well, you know!!! UGH!! Grace...Grace...Grace...Lord help me accept that free gift that You give me!

Group was a really great tonight and it helped me be prepared for my encounter with the cookie monster that took me from a 5 to an 8. I am currently trying to remember that there is no condemnation in Christ...and that His strength is perfect when mine is nowhere to be found. I sound like some sort of Monk or something as I walk around the house chanting "Thank you God for my failures, thank you God for my failures". Luckily, Bruce has seen my "crazy" before so he is just enjoying his hot fudge cookie sundae in front of the t.v. (a total no no according to the 8 keys of concious eating...but who am I to judge) and ignoring me...

So, the sandwich and the cookie weren't the failure...but eating to like an 8 was! :) So I observe and correct...honestly, I had hoped I wouldn't have to provide you all with an example of a trip up so soon after our meeting, but what can I say...I'm devoted to you guys. LOL!


I am thankful that the Lord did give me the time and motivation to create the charts that we discussed tonight so that I might actually try to dig a little deeper each day this week. If you would like me to email them to you, let me know. Thank you all again for your support, friendship, and encouragement...this is a slow process and I think that I am finally letting me expectations, regarding this being a quick fix weight loss plan, die. This is about me and Him...or Him and me...or He and I...whatever, you know what I mean...this is about my relationship with Him!!! If anything else happens, AWESOME, if not, there is no greater treasure than to draw closer to Him, and to simply get a glimpse of His Glory.

Take care this week...and please share your thoughts on the blog if you can!

Ash

Just wanted to let you all know the questions will be up tomorrow!!!

Hi Everybody,

I think this will be a really cool tool for us to use!! I will be posting the questions for our week here, and then we can talk on twitter throughout the week.

Tonight was really great, and encouraging. Thank you all for your support and friendship! It means so much!

Ash